Un breaking a broken spirit
How do I un break my broken spirit?.
When your spirit is crushed by a violent and severely abusive parent so freakn young that you walk in fear through your entire life.
Allowing people to continue to use and abuse you repeatedly out of fear.
How do you find a way to heal and connect with others for the very first time in your life. I've spent my whole life people pleasing out of fear
First of all, I want you to know that you are so brave ! You are amazing ! I may not know what you've been through but I do understand you. Sometimes, what hurts us the most is the fact that those people we expect to support us are those who caused us too much pain and trauma, and people around us keep breaking our trust.
For the fact that you take the initiative to connect is so brave of you ! One of the most powerful thing that I always do everytime I am on my lowest ebb is to pray, to talk to Him. Everyone could turn their back on us but God is just there, waiting for us to surrender our worries on Him. We can heal through His leading.
I'm so proud of you @amiableBlackberry92! Thank you for choosing to move forward regardless of how the world gripped you into pieces. God bless you !
@SunnySquare1
Thank you for responding. It means alot to know someone hears me. I do pray alot and I found an amazing singer of God's faith, Lauren Daigle.... Her music hits me right in the heart. "You Say" and "Hold On To Me" are especially meaningful to me.
I know God cares and has a plan for me I just hope I can figure it out before I leave earth forever. I have one life to live and so far it's been pretty rough. And I'm running out of time I'm in my 50s.
I have dealt with child abuse, sexual assault , work harassment , major medical crisis among many other traumas. I have CPTSD and I struggle alot with it.
I saw this quote recently and I'd like to shout it to all who have crossed my path and judged me ....
" Since your done gossiping about me ....now I need you to pray for me so I can be perfect like you"
Seems like people love to kick you when your face down and barely holding on....
I owe myself the biggest apology for putting up with what I didn't deserve.
Starting out with the worst possible childhood teaches you not how to cope and succeed in life, it teaches you how to fear, to people please and allow others to abuse you, take advantage of you and steal your sanity.
How dare they , they should be ashamed for treating Gods creation so badly.
Anyway thanks Sunny, your post was like a hug for me today.
ABB 💜
