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I WANT TO SCREAMMMMM. I'm 32.. my incestuous abuser admitted to sleep assaulting me when I was under the age of 14.. but didn't admit it until I was 31. I know of more abuse from him, but always had repressed it or thought I was crazy. Apparently when I turned 31, statue of limitations is up. I thought I could press charges, now I just feel like what the fuck. This piece of garbage gets to assault me, his own flesh and blood.. from a very young age.. and serves NO repercussions!? I'm sorry, what a fucking JOKE. He is a sadistic fuck so I feel as if he knew SOL was up at that age.. I'm just so defeated and depressed right now.. what the actual hell... I'm disgusted with life
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If you'd like, I'm not much company at the moment ♡ thank you
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I'm so sorry to hear your news. Just wanted to reach out and tell you that you're in my thoughts and prayers... If that makes any difference! Sounds weird when writing this, but I admire you being able to get yourself to the point where you're ready to tell the authorities... That in itself is an achievement. And at the same time, this achievement should also remind you that you're not defeated, that your ability to be open about what happened to you is strength and positivity in and of itself. Yes, life has dealt you a savage blow, but you are resilient, you've got yourself all the way here under your own steam. Try to remember that out of everything you're going through right now, your well-being is the most important thing - seek ways to take your mind away from the 'rage against the machine' you must feel like right now. You have not been defeated, and you will come through this, same as you've come through everything you've experienced to this point in your life. Take good care of yourself. Grits
Oooh, my heart, this brought me to tears. I needed these words right now, thank you. I'm trying to see the light through this all. It's very hard when I finally felt as if I could speak to the authorities, and to now realize it more than likely isn't an option. Honestly kicked me to the ground emotionally, and I hate that because I felt I was growing and healing. Kind of like he was able to hurt me again, in a different way. I'm trying though, trying not to fall into my sadness again.
Just a thought... You may want to consider putting your report of what happened in writing (facts and all) and hand it in to the authorities. After that, it's up to them to do whatever they choose with it, but you'll have reported it, you'll have it off your (metaphorical) chest and he won't have 'won'. It may help you achieve some closure on this.
Intergalactic I'm so sorry. Every states different on SOL . Which is so awful. Especially for kid Victims/ survivors there should be no limits as we pay with the reruns/ flashbacks etc. for life , and the perps get away with their criminal behavior. I feel your frustrations. This is a really hard time for you , my heart goes out to you. I've had some baaaad stuff happen to me with no justice served at all. So I had to just leave it to God so I could heal. I know it sounds lame but I had to so I could find some bit of peace. It's not perfect but it was all I had. I'm thinking about and praying for you. ABB
Sometimes I wonder if we ever truly let anyone completely in. for another person to know you, all of you, all the pieces, even the ones you're ashamed of - is huge. But too often we sort through the pieces only picking out the pretty ones, leaving the ugly ones behind, not realizing that choosing not to share with someone else is like committing a crime against our soul - for how can we ever be free? When we purposefully place what we struggle with the most - in the dark? I can't share my dark with my circle. I share here on 7 cups because it's safe and judgement free. ABB
Intergalactic, you have fight and strength. I like that about you. That's what's going to help you thru. Your inspirational. ABB
Thank you so much ABB ♡ I appreciate you and your openness. This community has been such a huge help to me, I don't feel so alone. I just wish I could help you all, I know the frustration, devastation.. etc can be so overwhelming at times. I feel like I shut myself out, a lot.. because I did that growing up.. now I know why. I just mainly struggle with my over active brain.. I cannot stop analyzing things from my past.. things my abuser has said and done.. I hate it. I'm hoping that I'm told I have legal rights in the matter, even if that means he's just put on the sex offender list. If anything, that shouldn't be in question. Ugh, I hate him so much.. I don't want to deal with any of this
Intergalactic, thinking about you and hoping your ok. 💜ABB