chilhood abuse TW

Well hi some of the listeners here know me, i think that like everyone mee too ive had my problems,from birth i was neglected by my biological parents, i do not talk that much about it but it surely affects me then when i was 3 years i got adopted by a family, i think i should be very thankful that i got adopted as i think living in residential care is not the best noyrishment a child can get, right? Anyway i love my adoptive parents and i would do anything for them but sometimes i get really angry!:( they used to physically and emotionally abuse me, like pulling her slapping hitting with belt sputting and u know head banging me to the wall once even one of my parents shoved part of my shoulder with a blade cause i got them angry i was a troubled child but i was behaved too u know!! Anyway this kept going on until 16 years of age then i started having suicidal ideation and my guidance had to report to the social workers, so from rhere started the worse argument got much worse emotionally and starting zoning out getting thin and i stayed for 3 weeks only on milk, anyway long story made short had a fight with them and decided to leave home and i ended in a shelter.i stayed there for a year and since i already was a self harmer when i was at the shelter i went all lot and by that i mean everyday deep scarring my left arm which are still scarred till today during that year i ended up in a mental hospital and had to stay there for a week under an observation order, while at the shelter i got also sexually exploited infront of the shelter by a man wgen he told if i wanted a ride and so i did( i know its my fault :() well now im back with parents and now i suffer have been diagnosed for a year now already, that,i have depression and anxiety and im schzio affective and i dont kno what that means haaahhaa anyway i also have been told i have borderline personality traits but have been noot yet diagnosed( will see) anyway just wanted to share my experienxe i hadd good times too in my life borh with parents and in the shelter my aim in life is to raise awarness on child abuse as i believe every kind of abuse can lead to death sonehow and i want that people stop stigmatizing mental health as sonetimes its much more serious than physical health.