Trigger warning! Sexual assault!!! Not going into real detail to spare the feeling of other!
It has been 14 years almost but the pain however is still very real.
The 3 boys were friends of mine former high school class mates of mine I had known them since like middle school.
On a Friday night my sister in law texted me saying I should come over have some drinks order some pizza and watch a movie with her. So after work at 7 pm I went over to her place. We started drinking I only had like 1. She said my cousin and 2 of his friends were coming over to hang with us.
I guess they got their about 7:30 pm we were all drinking, laughing. Having a wonderful time. At some point I got really wasted more soooo than them. I guess I passed out when I woke up the 3 were removing my clothes and trying to make me do things to them. Sadly that's all I remember of that night.
I Know it's my fault for being sooooooo stupid......
I got what I deserved.....
However that does not make it any less painful!!!
@lostmarriedmamaof2
I hear you, and you did _not_ deserve, I promise. I know that your pain is real, and it is true. You did not deserve this, and no one ever does. This is a crime, the one that is never ever excusable. You did nothing wrong, and the criminals are fully and completely to blame.
Thank you for sharing, thank you for opening, you are safe here. It was not your fault, and I am glad that you are here.
You are not alone, and you are good. I know that it hurts.
Jeff
@lostmarriedmamaof2 hi dear. i am so sorry to hear about what you have gone through. please know that it is not, in any way, your fault. And I do mean that. Getting drunk around friends of yours should not turn into such a situation at all, and it is not your fault that they took advantage of that. You should have been able to feel safe around their company. I know that there are people who might tell you you should have been more careful - people always tend to blame the victim. But no matter how drunk you were, what you worse etc. - there was no consent and you did not deserve that.
sending you love