A safe space of EmpathyS & independentAvocado7315
hello @independentAvocado7315 i know you are struggling a lot this days i just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in this, feel free to vent out here everyday i m here for you sending hugs and support all your way
@EmpathyS
first of all I want to say sorry okay .. i know you’re hurting too, and maybe that’s why your words reach me … i don’t want to act like things are fine because they’re not … i tried to end everything quietly thinking maybe that would finally stop the pain but they pulled me back and now i’m here left to suffer even more … sometimes it feels like being save wasn’t a blessing but another kind of punishment … i see your sadness too and i know your carrying things that are too heavy to explain too I don’t want to add to it I’m sorry empathy your a good friend but I don’t deserve it
@independentAvocado7315 I hear the pain in your words, and I’m really glad you’re still here with us. You don’t have to carry this alone, even if it feels unbearable right now. You matter more than you realize, and I’m not going anywhere.
@EmpathyS i wish it felt like that inside… but right now it just hurts so much, and I feel so lost and I don’t know how to hold on I’m sorry and I miss vlin but I’m not brave enough to talk to her what shell think after she know I tried to end everything
@independentAvocado7315 I hear how heavy and lonely this feels for you, and I’m really sorry you’re hurting this much.
It’s okay to miss Vlin and still be afraid your feelings don’t make you less worthy of care.
Even in the fog, I see you, and I care that you’re here.
@EmpathyS Every day feels like I’m walking through a fog I can’t escape
@EmpathyS keep wondering if anyone could ever truly understand how much this emptiness takes from me
@EmpathyS But even in all this pain, a tiny part of me wants to believe someone might still see me, might still care, even if I can’t find the courage to show it
@independentAvocado7315 I hear how heavy and lonely this feels for you, and I’m really sorry you’re hurting this much.
It’s okay to miss Vlin and still be afraid your feelings don’t make you less worthy of care.
Even in the fog, I see you, and I care that you’re here.
@EmpathyS Thank you… it means a little that you see me
@EmpathyS But the heaviness doesn’t go away, and some days it feels like I’m trapped in this fog with no way out
@independentAvocado7315 I can feel how exhausting that weight must be, and I’m so sorry you’re carrying it.
Even when the fog feels endless, it doesn’t mean you’re alone in it.
I’ll keep walking beside you through it, step by step. and if you feel like venting more i will be in depression room now
@EmpathyS I don’t know what to say empathy I’m sorry really sorry
@EmpathyS I miss Vlin so much and I missed you to and I don’t know how to face all of this
@independentAvocado7315 I hear how much you’re missing both Vlin and me, and how overwhelming it feels to face everything right now.
You don’t need to have the perfect words just being honest about your feelings is enough.
I’m here with you in this, and take all the time you need sending hugs all your way
@EmpathyS appreciate you being here… but it still hurts so much and I feel like I’m drowning in everything
@EmpathyS I miss you and Vlin more than I can say and even though I know you care it’s hard to believe I’m worth it
@independentAvocado7315 I hear how deep that pain runs, and I’m so sorry it feels like drowning right now.
Even when it’s hard to believe you’re worth it, I promise you are, and I care deeply.
I miss you too, and you matter more than you know.
@EmpathyS no empathy
@independentAvocado7315
I can hear how much you’re hurting, and I won’t stop caring.
Even if you can’t believe it yet, I’ll keep reminding you that you matter.
@EmpathyS I can’t believe this
@EmpathyS The pain feels too deep and I can’t see what you see in me I miss you too but most of the time I just feel empty like nothing I do will ever be enough
@independentAvocado7315 I hear how deep that emptiness feels, and I’m really sorry you’re carrying it.
It’s okay if you can’t see in yourself what I see right now I’ll keep holding that hope for you.
You’re not alone in this, and missing you only shows how much you matter. and i was looking for you in rooms yesterday so yes i do miss you too and consider you my good friend here
@EmpathyS I don’t know what to say… it breaks me that you see hope in me when I can’t find any
@EmpathyS I feel like I’m fading in this emptiness, and even though you say I matter, it’s so hard to believe
@independentAvocado7315 I can feel how heavy that emptiness is for you, and I’m so sorry it feels like fading.
It’s okay if believing is hard right now and take your time but
Even in the hardest moments, your presence matters deeply. and know we are more than our emotions and we are our own worst judge
@EmpathyS empathy to be honest with you i want to believe that my presence matters but the emptiness keeps convincing me otherwise
@EmpathyS also maybe your right that I’m my own worst judge but it’s exhausting to fight my own mind all the time
@EmpathyS Hearing that you looked for me it hurts and comforts me at the same time and I don’t feel like I deserve a friend like you I’m sorry empathy
@independentAvocado7315 I hear how torn you feel wanting to believe your presence matters but being pulled by that emptiness.
You don’t have to deserve a friend to be worthy of care; you already are.
I’m here for you, and I won’t give up on you, even when it feels impossible.
@EmpathyS
It’s hard for me to take that in… I feel like I’ll never be enough no matter how much you say I matter and a part of me wants to believe you won’t give up on me but the emptiness keeps whispering that everyone does eventually I’m scared of needing care I don’t deserve empathy
@independentAvocado7315 I can feel how heavy that fear and doubt are for you, and it makes sense that the emptiness feels so convincing.
Needing care doesn’t make you unworthy it’s part of being human, and it’s okay to need support.
I’m here, and I won’t give up on you, even when it feels like the world does.
@EmpathyS I believe you empathy
@EmpathyS buy the emptiness is louder than everything else and it tells me I’ll always be too much always needing more than I should and I’m scared that one day even you will get tired of me no matter how much you promise not to I don’t know how to silent this voice inside me
@independentAvocado7315 I hear how loud and relentless that voice feels, and it makes sense that it’s so hard to quiet.
Needing support doesn’t make you “too much” it makes you human, and your feelings are valid.
Even when the emptiness shouts, I’m not going anywhere, and I’ll keep being here with you. and btw i never left anyone in my life whome care about
@EmpathyS part of me wants so badly to believe that… but the louder part keeps saying I’ll end up alone anyway and i don’t know how to trust that someone could stay even when I’m this broken.m and hearing that you’ve never left anyone you care about means more than I can say but I’m scared I’ll be the exception
@independentAvocado7315 I can feel how much fear and doubt are weighing on you, and it’s okay to feel scared.
Being broken doesn’t make you unlovable or destined to be alone you’re still worthy of care and connection.
I’m here, and I won’t let you be the exception; I’m not going anywhere. and how about giving me a chance? maybe let it be last.
@EmpathyS
hearing you say you won’t leave… it gives me a small comfort, like maybe I’m not completely alone in this
@independentAvocado7315 I’m glad even a small part of that brings you comfort.
You’re not completely alone here, and I see you even in the hardest moments.
It’s okay to hold onto that small comfort and let it grow slowly, one step at a time.
@EmpathyS
I don’t know if I can I’m so scared of letting anyone close but a small part of me wants to believe you when you say you won’t leave and maybe that part of me could try even if I’m not sure I’m strong enough
@independentAvocado7315 It makes sense to feel scared it’s hard to let anyone in when you’ve been hurt before.
Even the small part of you that wants to believe is a sign of strength, not weakness.
You don’t have to be sure or perfect; I’ll be here as you take it one step at a time. and promise to never break your trust thank you for giving me a chance
@EmpathyS
Thank you… it’s hard for me to let anyone in but hearing you say that even a small part of me is strong makes me feel a little less alone and I’m scared but I’ll try to take it one step at a time and I hope I can trust you like you promise
@independentAvocado7315 I hear you, and I’m proud of you for letting even a small part of yourself try that takes real courage.
It’s okay to be scared; taking it one step at a time is more than enough.
I’ll keep being here, just as I promised, and see you around in rooms aswell sending hugs
@EmpathyS
Thank you it means a lot to hear that I’m still scared and unsure and I don’t know if I can be in a room or talk to Vlin I don’t want her to know I tried to end everything and feel like such a coward but I’ll try to take it one step at a time knowing you’re really here and keeping your promise makes it feel a little less heavy I appreciate you more than I can say
@independentAvocado7315 I hear how heavy all of this feels, and it makes sense to be scared and unsure it doesn’t make you a coward.
Taking things one step at a time, with even a little support, is brave and enough.
I’m here for you, and untill than we can talk here feel free to tag me anytime also i will check on you..
@Empathy
empathy … it helps to know you understand how heavy this feels I’m still scared and unsure and feel like a coward for everything I went through but knowing I can talk to you and that you’ll check on me makes it a little easier to keep going
@independentAvocado7315 I hear how heavy and overwhelming it all feels, and feeling scared doesn’t make you a coward it makes you human.
Talking about it is itself a brave step, even if it feels small.
@EmpathyS
maybe I’ll see you in a room can I
@independentAvocado7315 sure disability support room is empty currently i will be there
@EmpathyS
okay
@EmpathyS
Can you send this to vlin..?
Vlin, I got your message and it’s the thing that made me cry andI’ve been carrying so much inside and I’m scared to tell you andI don’t want you to see me as weak or broken but I can’t keep hiding everything either I can’t do it anymore and I wish I could be brave enough to talk to you and to empathy about it I’m sorry
@independentAvocado7315 sure i will send it to vlin
@EmpathyS
also thank you for listening to me I can believe you won’t give up on me now but I can feel your hurt too I can’t make it more for you empathy
@independentAvocado7315 Thank you for trusting me enough to share that it means a lot.
I want you to know you’re not making things heavier for me by opening up.
Caring about you doesn’t hurt me it’s something I choose, and I’ll keep being here with you. and dont take me wrong i m also looking for a friend tbh so would you like to connect outside cups its ok if its a no but i just wanted to be there for you please dont take me wrong
@EmpathyS
Thank you it really means a lot that you care and want to be there for me It’s not a problem at all but I don’t use any social media or chatting apps so I’m not sure how we could connect outside here I still really appreciate you being here with me
@independentAvocado7315 I understand, thank you for letting me know. If you’d ever feel okay with it, maybe downloading Te le gram could be an option but if not, that’s completely fine too. I’m happy to keep talking here with you, and I really appreciate our connection.
@EmpathyS
I wish I could it is not that simple for me there are things in my life that make it impossible right now and if I tried it would only hurt me I do not want you to think I do not care I do that is why I would rather stay here even if it feels limiting
@independentAvocado7315 I completely understand, and I’m really grateful you shared that with me.
It doesn’t change how much I care I’m glad we can still connect here.
Your presence matters to me, no matter the platform. and btw dala was also looking for you today in rooms that shows how much valued you are here well i will be going to sleep now since its 1:26 am already i will be checking on you again tomorrow take care
@EmpathyS
I’m really glad things are better now, and your words mean a lot to me
@EmpathyS
Thank you for caring, it makes me feel lighter and I hope you slept well and yes dalaa I know her she live in the same country as me they told me she was looking for me in the hospital too and she was hiding or something shes really pour girl she’s there for months now she’s 21 but if you know her she’s actually 17 with her teddy bear and I feel bad I just left her without saying anything
@EmpathyS
There’s something I want to tell you… but every time I think about it, I end up doing it again no matter how much I promise myself not to also how are you empathy? And did you see vlin !
@independentAvocado7315
I can really feel how much you care about her, and it shows your heart is kind even when things are tough for you too. 💙
It’s okay if sharing feels hard, you don’t have to force it just knowing you want to talk is a strong step.
I’m doing ok, thank you for asking, and yes i saw her she sent you best wishes and support, how are you holding up today?
@EmpathyS
empayhy.. I don’t what to say I’m sorry
@independentAvocado7315 thats ok take your time
@EmpathyS
i think I should get rid of all of the candles in the house
@independentAvocado7315 mhmm
@EmpathyS
I know I am doing something wrong the candles are in front of me they are burning melting so hot I even touched them with my hand it does not hurt really but I know it is wrong
@independentAvocado7315 I hear you and i know you’re in a lot of pain and trying to cope with it in ways that might not be safe. 💙
You don’t deserve to hurt yourself, even if it feels like it doesn’t matter right now.
If you can, please reach out to someone you trust or a crisis line right away you deserve care and safety in this moment.
@EmpathyS
no empathy no I won’t talk to anyone or reach anywhere you don’t understand small pain can get rid of much bigger pain
@independentAvocado7315 I’ve been there too, SH and all I understand how it can feel like a small pain can take away the bigger one. 💙
I’m here with you, and it’s okay to let yourself feel what you’re feeling without judgment.
You’re not alone in this, and I can stay and listen as long as you need.
@EmpathyS
empathy please can we talk in a room ? Please
@independentAvocado7315 yes i will be in disability support room now do come when you can
@EmpathyS
empathy all good ?
@Guacamole821 yes
@EmpathyS
empathy.. I know it’s hard for you but you don’t know what you means to me thank you empathy also I have to go now there’s alot of mess in my head now but I’ll be okay I promise don’t worry please be fine also D. Is crying now so I’ll be with her a bit then go to my room good night and one more thing maybe I deserve you ❤️✨
@independentAvocado7315 ofcourse you do! will talk tomorrow sending hugs and take care
@EmpathyS
thank you empathy I’m not sure but yes maybe and also yes talk to you tomorrow please be okay 💓
@EmpathyS
Hi my friend how are you today
@independentAvocado7315 i m alright what about you
@EmpathyS
i know your not okay I can feel it and me.. I’m trying to survive a panic attack