Betrayel

I was with my partner for 8years we have children, one of my children are disabled, long story short he struggled for years with drug and alcohol abuse I prayed and prayed stood by him tried to help him but he got worse and one day he got up and left he had cheated and left he ended up telling me but he wasn’t telling me the whole truth so I couldn’t help him I knew I couldn’t accept it, he then hated me from them onwards 19months later he is still with her and tbh she is just as spiteful I have always encouraged him to see the kids I’ve even tried to be nice to her I always believe and say I love my kids more then I could ever hate them so I put it to a side anyway they never turn up to get them she doesn’t allow him to speak to me and I have never causes them any harm I found God in all of this I always believed in God but truly ran to God and he really has guided me and given me the strength to get through, but now I’m at a stumble as I am really struggling to heal from it I do pray every day and believe God will remove and heal my pain but I would love to hear other people’s testimony’s on how they healed and forgave in similar situations