Falling Apart

f-*ck, i just typed this whole thing and had to verify my email and copy and pasted the code. this is the other thing that’s incredibly frustrating. in a similar fashion i am irresponsible and constantly unprepared, and while i’m responsible for my actions, i would be able to be at the very least more often if it weren’t for my mental health.

the only thing i have the energy to do is draw, lay down/sleep, and watch tv. my parents are abusive and my mental health has been getting worse and worse each year. junior year’s grades are the most important and they’re worse than ever. i’ve pretty much always barely passed the grade since about 1st grade. i have no clue how to be responsible and i’m just so behind on life skills for my age because of my parents. i can’t get any f_cking help in real life and i used to use another site for advice for 4 years but people are SO mean on there. i literally went crazy in 2020 because of my mom and started hallucinating and being delusional and stuff and have struggled with such since. i just don’t know what to do. and i’ve explained this so many times that i don’t even feel like it but it’s not as simple as leaving or calling cps or getting emancipated. and on that other site that’s ALL the advice i’d get. i need help with coping with my current situation. I just don’t know what to do