Family Issue

My family is really difficult to deal. Parents are toxic. siblings are same. Im the person who separated but it really hard. My childhood is really difficult with them. I am so sad when i am apart from them alone. My father treats me differently.this made so broken. I loved them pure. They abused me. They never satisfy what i do. They want more. They look at only what I do. Not me. Not my pain. Not my dedication. Only the outcome. Bcz i have awareness i didn't obey the toxicity. So they punish me. Its really difficult to see them together laugh and engaging together. I am invisible to them. Father only adore my sisters.praise them . Being outsider of my own family is feel like ***😭. Its really difficult experience. Im stuck here due to some reasons. God give me the strength navigate through this pain.