Help

I had to cut my mother out a second time.

I did the first time because she has NPD. She doesn’t love me. She abuses me (not physically or sexually, but in every other way.) and I went to her in a time of severe need, but she was the same. I cut her out again, I did first when I was 17, now I’m 18.

I cut her out last night and stayed at her house overnight because I had nowhere else to go then.

My other parents are also douchebags like that. They pretty much do the same.

At least my dad is deciding to get better for now.

I can’t get out yet.

I don’t have a credit card yet to build my credit score.

No insurances are in my name.

No bills in my name.

I have to pay my dad car insurance every month, though.

My shop pays me dogshit.

I’m angry and irritable.

I’m stuck.

I’m trying to find better job opportunities and when I get given them, I back out. And I hate myself for that.

I have been diagnosed with GAD, ADHD, and ASD. Those are huge factors, too.

I identify as a gay, trans man, and that affects me because a lot of my family (mostly parents) do not accept me. I have 6 parents.

I do not consider my mother one, and *** her bf is kinda out now, he’s also a ***, so 4 parents.

My mom has my dog.

He’s in her name under her ownership.

I needed an enemy, so I chose someone who’s the worst at my school.

I mean, this kid is the actual worst, he is the son of god damn satan.

I’ve been having trouble with classmates and coworkers.

I keep treating my partner with anger by accident and I feel terribly bad because they are so wonderful to me.

I’m doing my best to be better but it’s not working.

I want my life better and I want to choose to, but it feels like there is a little guy in my head controlling me and I feel like I’m conscious with wants and needs, but the man is controlling my actions and not letting me carry out what I need to better myself and my situation.

I need advice, I need someone to listen, I’m willing to talk

Someone please reach out