Is this relatable?

Do you ever watch a show or a film and, despite being slightly triggered by anything they say or do, you still genuinely want to watch it instead of stopping yourself? In the end, you still watch even though your chest hurts and breathing is more difficult. Once you’re done, you just want to cry because you’re so stupid for watching it. Idk I was just listening at the way the character explain the trauma he went through and it reminded me of how I speak when I talk about what I went through. It was almost like his guilt and shame for himself was just like how I felt and it made me so upset. Anyway yeah I’m pretty silly.