Living in a toxic environment

2nd November 2026, 2.29 am

I am sitting alone at my room with thoughts in my head. I couldn't fight them nor can I quit at this point. Feeling helpless, frustrated, claustrophobic. The more I try to feel positive I get stucked. Living in a toxic environment for years has made me a loser, yes you read that right, loser! My bed stinks, my rooms is full of garbage and mosquits, the outside area of my room is an urinal, is this a normal lifestyle? and the interesting part is these things are not in my control. People says when you do not receive love start spreading it but here my own people do not want the love in me; disrespected, humiliated and often neglected. Having no positive energy but still can't give up, will survive till the end.