My ex girlfriend (TRIGGER WARNING)

I am a lesbian and this happened with the first ever girl I dated. We were both pretty young at the time-old enough to know better. I was round her house and we were watching movies ect until she started making a move on me. I had told her previous that I wasn’t ready for that yet. Though, she still continued to do it and gaslit me. It feels weird because now I don’t know if I can even count that as anything as we were both too young to understand, or if I misinterpreted the signals, or if I didn’t say no loud enough. I still think even though the whole thing has not really effected me, I carry it so deep inside myself , almost like I am built on that. It made me scared of intimacy for a while to the point I thought I was asexual because of it. And of course, being a lesbian is hard to come to terms with enough as a young girl. I just never really understood it because no one ever told me how you might feel afterwards. I remember slamming her door and storming out her house, and feeling guilty that I didn’t want it to happen. I’ve never expressed this openly before. It’s been kinda repressed in my memory. It just crossed my mind from time to time.