My ex sexually exploited me

Im not good at talking to people I have social anxiety. I've always been shy but after being homeschooled and had barely any social interactions for 2 years messed with me mentally. Last year I had bad anxiety and depression so I started talking to people online it was much easier that way. I had a lot of family problems and I started to make small cuts on my wrists. I avoid people and social situations often even though deep down I just want to have freinds and not be lonely anymore. I feel socially behind and everyday it felt like I had something new to learn or I never really fit in. Now this year everything was going okay. I got into contact with my horrible online ex who sexually exploited me (I didnt know at the time) He introduced me to his freind then I dated his freind online. He told me that he saw some pictures and describedthem and i knew they were mine. I felt so terrible and the tinhg was he didnt comfort me or feel angry knowing his freind did that to his girlfriend. We eventually nroke up which made me extremely sad. I reported my ex on social media and anonymously on the CyberTipline and of course nothing happened which messed with me very negatively. I started shutting people out and just feeling so sad. I began having panic attacks and I developed costochondrits (which idk has to do with anything it just made panic attacksfeel worse) In social situations I speak quietly people not hearing me most of the time and it makes me feel embarrassed. I have a hearing sensitivity so I often speak quieter cause Im afraid of being too loud and watched. Im not pretty enough everyone has a life. I still dont know how to drive I dont have a freind group I dont have anything. Tbh I just want to give up at. Ill never get justice for what he did, sharing my intimate photos that he got me to send ,WHILE PRETENDING TO BE SOMWONE ELSE AND ASKING FOR THEM. Basically catfished me, manipulated, and lied. Now I just dont know if I'll ever be able to be happy or have a relationship for a long time. I lost my trust in teenage boys and men in general thanks to him.