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I have come to realize that distancing is not always a sign of rejection or indifference; sometimes it is a mental response to a set of internal questions. It was as if I was searching for a place not dominated by the circumstances life imposed on me, a place where I could just be myself, free from any predefined molds or fixed perceptions.

When I distanced myself, it wasn’t fleeing, but an attempt to understand myself away from the influences of my environment. My friend tried to reconnect me to what I had detached myself from, almost as if it was an invitation to return to a place where I could find myself. But perhaps it was an attempt to view the world through his own perspective, the perspective that I felt I had outgrown. Yet, in the moments I distanced myself, I felt like I was searching for something deeper, something more real than belonging to beliefs that no longer resonated with me.

Was this an individual thought or a deviation from norms? Was distancing a path toward truth, or merely a struggle with what I could no longer accept? I have not yet found the answer. But now, I see that perhaps it was necessary to be alone for a while, to live this solitude to discover that I don’t need to be part of something to feel complete. Perhaps, it was simply a lesson in self-acceptance, in living with the gaps that cannot be filled with words or actions, but only by moving forward toward a deeper understanding of existence