Only Child, 27, Struggling To Find Community

Hi sorry I am not very sociable person very feel lonely and I am not close with my family. I’ve never been and I am only child and I currently live in my childhood town where all my trauma began. I’m 27 and broke and it’s sad looking at memories outside window everyday nothing nothing nostalgic only mistakes and hurt as early 11 years old. I lost my grandfather long time ago. I live with my aunt and grandmother it’s awfully lonely. I want to move out as far as friends I only have one friend since high school who lives in the other side of town but it’s still awfully I only see every three weeks. I want to move out so bad. If not this house I have my other house with my mom and step dad but that place I don’t know a single soul, friend, person. I am not connected there with my family either. It’s terribly I’m only child who grew up with three women for years. As for my dad he abandons me I never been close to him. As for my step dad we have nothing in common. Sorry to be long winded it’s a lot to share and there is more to the story trust. Sorry over sharing and repeating my posts on different, sometimes I feel like I am invisible due to my PTSD and isolation. And my posts are being lost in the sea of posts. I am new here and so stilli finding my place.