T/W- Trauma, Pornography
I have chronic depression n cptsd nothing helps me now to end the sufferings i watch porn to numb my mind n i feel shame because i m already in a relationship idk what to do I m messed upI stop feeling anything after watching porn i don't watch porn to fulfill sexual desires but to numb my emotions... I m not sure what to do
Hello, I read you posting and see that you have have an issue with watching porn or feeling bad about that. First of all there is something called porn addiction. But if youre addicted or not is nothing I can decide but what I can tell you from my own perspective as a human and as man is: Sexuality should not be something you should be ashamed of. Some people need more of it some need less of it - it's nothing we can active control. If you break it down we are intelligent animals - nothing more and nothing less. As those "animals" we have the innate urge for sexuality - it's nature. There is no reason to feel bad because youre watching porn even if youre in a relationship. You are an independent person - with or without relationsship. And even if you decide to talk with your partner about that and tell him that you watch porn and feel sexually underutilized then its something your partner has to accept. You cannot bend yourself to be like others want you to be. You are how you are and who you are. I just hope you can take this words to feel a bit better, I'm always there to chat if you want. I wish you a beautiful day! :)
@GuardianWhisperer I watch porn to numb my emotions because I'm going through a lot of suffering. It helps me escape when I have an emotional breakdown. After I watch it, I often feel blank and disconnected. I don’t do this for enjoyment; I just want to avoid the pain. My situation is bit complex
@IndependentLady2
Ah okay sorry for understanding that on a wrong way. I apologize.
Did you ever try another "valve" for your emotions?
Just some examples: sport, painting, being outside in nature.. etc
