TW:sexuall assault,self harm

january 2022 i got sexually assulted by a boy in my class lests call him harry,harry had done this to other girls before and its effected them as well,he r*ped 3 girls one of my best friends included,he touched me in 3 different classes.1.french where it started he touched the inside of my leg and i pushed him off slightly,he started touching private parts and where i felt like i had no pawer i was scared to deal because he has r*ped 3 girls he could do it to me 2.in food&nutrition class he sat next to me and touched my inner thight and i moved it again and he gripped onto my inner thigh andleft a mark when i got home i could see where his finger nails were digging into my skin,3.again in food&nutriton class we was cooking and came by me and was cooking,he came behind me to "help me" he grabbed my b**bs and i pushed him off then he once again gripped onto my thigh and started touching me in private areas,and when i would be around school he would find any excuse to talk to me and i was scared for my life when i saw him everywhere i would start crying and shaking when i would see him,i wasnt gonna tell anyone about it,until he was sat behind me next to one of my friends-ella and did it to her,she ran out and i started screaming at him,all the girls that it happened to from my class came outside with a teacher and ella punched him in the nose and i slapped him across the face,there was around 5 girls from our class that it happened to,we all made a statment and the school had to call my mum and tell her what happened i begged her not to tell my dad because i didnt know how he was gonna react,me and my mum got home and she asked me loads of questions and she didnt even hug me or say it was gonna be ok,two days after my mum found out ella's mum told my dad all about it and he started crying and got angry and said why didnt i tell him i explained,2 weeks later i had a police officer come and talk to me,she asked if i wanted to start a court case on it and i said i want to but i have to speak to my parents,now this is where i got annoyed,they both said he's a young boy,its just what they do,you dont wanna put a name on him,so i wasnt allowed to,i cried over it every night,the teachers said he wasnt coming back to the school and he ended up coming back and he sent around fake n*des claiming they were mine ,of course everyone believed him and he ****ulted another girl and they promised he wasnt coming back,and he came back,did it again and the last words i got from him was "ill r*pe you if you file a court case and i broke down and was shaking for half an hour and went home,its december 2022 now,since november i havent been going to school because i dont feel safe and even though hes not there i still feel his hands all over me and i cant help but panic ,me and my dad had a fight yesterday because i tried to go to school and i was there and he walked past my car and went into the school and i was shaking crying and panicing in the car i went to see if it was actually him and he turned around and smiled at me so i ran home,i feel like out of all people my dad should be the one person atleast that supports and believes me but i know he doesnt believe me one bit he acts like he does but he doesnt,i have been crying since 9:30 am and writing this its 12:10,i dont know if anyone can relate but i dont feel clean,i feel his hands on me all over,i feel like he's behind and next to me doing it all over again,from that day onwards i developed a addiction to se\f h*rm ,on my arms,b**bs,inner thighs,thighs and lower stomach if anyone is going through this im here to talk<3