The Dinky Dinky trap
'TW'
At the age of 5 my mom and dad were going through a divorce and she tried kidnapping my brother and I from a babysitter's house because she didn't have custody of us so the babysitter's husband did against his front door and blocked it on my mom so she took us out the back door after a little while of being trapped inside the house she got us to the car which was a two-door Vega color blue she put us into the back seat of a car the babysitter's husband came out of his house said he was going to jump on the hood of her car then they skipped around her car she started to say dinky dinky let me go they got inside of her car they had a fight the babysitter's husband told her he was going to break off her arms if she did not give up her car keys to him she told him not to fart in her car we got back out skipped around it some more until my dad showed to me babysitter's husband is my hero and role model because of him I feel sometimes like trapping my mom and chasing her around her car myself I practice just about every day when I can
Yesterday my therapist felt bad for me when I read over scenarios that my mom put me through when she was trapped at the babysitter's house and therapist felt bad for what I was put through because of my mom putting me through the stuff that she did from showing up to the babysitter's house to try to kidnap my brother and I to when The babysitter and her husband took my brother and their children inside the house She drove a four or five-year-old around the corner to ask if she should go back into the house so she put me in to an adult decision by asking me that
Yesterday my therapist felt bad for me when I read over scenarios that my mom put me through when she was trapped at the babysitter's house and therapist felt bad for what I was put through because of my mom putting me through the stuff that she did from showing up to the babysitter's house to try to kidnap my brother and I to when The babysitter and her husband took my brother and their children inside the house She drove a four or five-year-old around the corner to ask if she should go back into the house so she put me in to an adult decision by asking me that
I can't wait till after my therapist gets her license so that she could come back and we could get my mom to an appointment and confront her during the appointment and have a skip agreement made up and meet up at a park after the session and skip around the outside of her car in the park
I am looking forward to when my therapist graduates from college because she got hired at the clinic where she works at now permanently and when she does I'm going to be a client of hers permanently and I'm going to see if she wants to invite mom to the session and have a confrontation with Mom about the past and then have a skip agreement ready to skip around Mom's car in a park but before we leave the office to skip around her car there will be a firm handshake with us looking into each other's eyes and same dinky dinky to each other before we move to the park
I'm very good at blocking doors I learned it very well by my hero and role model the babysitter's husband
I am good at door blocking and skipping around vehicles I learned from my hero and role model
I learned at a young age how to block doors and skip around the vehicles from my hero and role model who is protecting me and my brother
You see when my mom showed up to the babysitter's house I was playing with their children in one part of the driveway and they had a little argument with my mom telling her she was either too late or too early after that they took their children inside and took my brother inside the house Mom took me around the corner and asked a four or five-year-old whether she should go back into the house then I found out later in life that my mom used to lock me in my bedroom during the daytime when she can handle my crying My dad found out about this when he got home from his high-powered job My mom was very young and naive She was just going through college to become a teacher and she had a Pre-K set up in the garage of the house that my dad had and her before they had their divorce battle
So I have two sides to me I have the Jason / Jennifer side with Jason side is more barbaric and thinks about doing everything to Mom suddenly and against her will just like the babysitter's husband Jennifer side would confront mom in a session where the therapist sets up the session in a peaceful way and then have a mother and daughter day afterwards because Mom always wanted a daughter The mom and daughter day would be we go to a park and we skip around the outside of her car for fun
So I have two sides to me I have the Jason / Jennifer side with Jason side is more barbaric and thinks about doing everything to Mom suddenly and against her will just like the babysitter's husband Jennifer side would confront mom in a session where the therapist sets up the session in a peaceful way and then have a mother and daughter day afterwards because Mom always wanted a daughter The mom and daughter day would be we go to a park and we skip around the outside of her car for fun
