Trauma of rejection

Hello to whoever read this,

This is the worst time of my life at the age of 39.

I was born prematurely because my mother was going to abort me. But God had other plans; He chose to save me.

Throughout my life, I was never close to my parents because they cared more about my older sibling.

So I chose to support myself financially. I never had a boyfriend, but thankfully my best friend was willing to marry me. However, he never touched me. Later, I found out he was gay, so I chose to divorce him.

Now I fell in love again. This man presented himself as a religious and righteous person. He never touched me, never even kissed me. But before we were supposed to get married, he took all my savings and left me drowning in debt.

As time passed, I fell in love once more. I began to open my heart again, but this man rejected me in a way that humiliated me.

I do not know what mistakes I made in my past for this punishment to come into my life.

But I am grateful that God still wakes me up every morning.
I am just tired.

I hope your day is beautiful.