Truama

i didn't take it well i ran to my mother room he followed me angry that i'll tell her "it's nothing important just joking don't tell her come here" it didn't help anyway she was travling , one day i confornted him again said you should stop he act like he did nothing wrong "why didn't you tell me" i was frouis of his clueless response but i said "just stop it" year after, he tried to do that again when i was half asleep i got up and walked to his room screaming "why the **** did you touch me" we had fight i got beat up very fair right?didn't mention that whenever I confront him and ask him to stop he beat me, anyways my parents didn't know (doesn't matter when i told them they didn't believe me and they stayed his side..tho he hates them and talks down to them) they stayed at his side tho i'm the younger , he started first,

, i got beat up more broses, but hey they love those jerks what could i say, and than i cut him off i didn't talk to him he tried to beat up my sister i stayed up beat him up finally but recontily i lost wight i had another fight bc he tried to threaten my sister with metal weapon but i couldn't defind myself it's worth the trail i'm still (15) if you get me anything help tho i don't believe that's possible I think I have to do deal with it alone like i always did, it was lovely to get those emotions out, and i just wanna live notmal life loving parents loving siblings, supportive people, bc i lack safeity my siblings are horrbile my parents are just... it ruined my chillhood it's half way through my teenage years it's *** worse i

not fair other kids get live happy when i get to suffer all that why? I envy every kid who smiled when I was young I still cry and breakdown every single night bc I have no one to help me I just sit there and do nothing...  

I just want to feel safe something I never felt is that a lot to ask for?