Was she right or wrong ?

When I was child my mother did not want me. She did not buy me clothes. I used to wear one or two outfits everyday. She was telling me not to make friends. She used to hit me everyday as I was audacious and difficult child.

When I was teen ,she found out that I was self satisfying. She was a Christian and she never accepted that.

Although I used to self satisfy only when I was at home ,somehow the local community of people found out that I was self satisfying. At the same time , I started treating my mother very badly. I was shouting at her .I demanded from her. I asked her to go to search the rubbish bin and she did it. She treated me the same. One day she spat saliva on my face.

I was a teen and I knew it is difficult to find a job. Impossible even in a big city.

One day I asked my parents to send me to study but they did not want that. I shouted ,sworn and demanded her to send me to study. I was thinking this can be a good way to deal with unemployment and the same time get rid of my mother.

In the local community where I lived, there was a peer who became very angry at my attitude. Do you think that was fair or the victim here was me ?

Note that I do not want you to tell me a lie just to make me feel well. I just want to hear a truthfull and objective opinion about my situation and behaviour. Feel free to speak to me . I promise not to shout sware or demand anything from you