What happens now

TW:SA

I'm not sure how to start this but I'd rather it come out messy than not at all.I got corecored into sex two months ago.i didn't realize it until I got into a nasty fight with the person and realized my mind was making things out to be what they aren't. When I finally told them what I think happened they started to delete me off of everything that they knew and delete their own accounts. I thought I would get Justice by spreading the word of what they did but I decided to just stay at their partner because I thought maybe that would be enough Justice for me. The partner was equally as horrible and disgusting. She tried to make it out to seem like a misunderstanding. She put out false information that you can't be forced to do things that you don't want to do. She basically made the whole thing about herself and I let her because I thought I was giving her the room to be conflicted about someone that she used to love for 5 years. In doing so I probably forfeited My own story. She made me feel small and she said that because this person is perceived as male if I did go on with a "smear campaign"(their words not mine) that I would be hurting them back and that it would just be a vicious cycle. They said that most the time men get worse treatment in these things than women. I couldn't help but feel upset because not only are we two trans people but it seems like they've forgotten that usually the victim gets more abuse than anything. She tried to get me to not say anything because if I said something then she wouldn't be able to do what she wanted with the relationship. She recorded me without my consent and although she says that she won't show the video to anybody else I can't help but not believe her. There was so much that these two people did that have basically stopped my life because I feel like I need to have some type of revenge I need to out them on social media I need to do something but somehow telling my story becomes a lot scarier as I think about it. The hardest part is finding out where to put all this information. I feel like I can't move on until I do it.but after that what happens when I don't feel better? I'm feeling a lot and I'm not sure what to do with it I just want to talk about it over and over because that's the only way I can know myself that it's real and I won't let anyone victim blame me. I'm not sure what to do. I need community I need support but I don't know where that is. I think that's all that I have the heart to talk about.