"anniversary"

It's been 6 years since the first time, 4 since the time after that, 3 since the most recent. it doesn't feel right to call them anniversaries , but isnt that what people call these type of things? when the day of something big happened comes back around the next year? every year, when its the day they happened all those years ago, i forget all the things and effort i've put in to moving past those moments, those memories. I feel stuck. Nobody should have to feel this way. it makes me feel sick. I wish it didnt happen. i wish i wouldve spoken out sooner. i wish it wasnt as common as i know it is. i wish i could've gotten those other kids out too. they're out there somewhere. maybe they're ok. or maybe they're still trapped. or maybe, they got out, and are stuck. just like me.