Abandoned
When I was a child, my dad, whom i was very close to, died at age 21... I later found out that the reason why I never saw his family again is because they abandoned me and don't care about me anymore....I feel useless...i now am constantly afraid and paranoid I'm being left, I have constant nightmares....
@Spacequeen666
First I want to say sorry for the loss of your Dad. My deepest condolences. I admire your courage to share your struggles because that's how we take steps to healing. I'm familiar with PTSD so I can relate. I can inagine how terifying it is to have nightmares and feelings of adandonment. When it flares up try to remind yourself it's all in the mind and you're not alone in the real world.
Words can be very painful so I can imagine the damage when you heard your Dad's family abandoned you. We all have a purpose in life and we've come this far despite our past traumatic experiences. Try to be patient with yourself and surround yourself with those that accept you and appreciate you for who you are.
I hope you feel better and I'll be glad to support you if you'd like to connect 1 on 1.
Take care!
Joy 
@CaringJoy thank you so much!! I'd love to talk, maybe tomorrow or this week if you can!!! 💕💕💕thank
@Spacequeen666
I just noticed we can't schedule a chat because I'm not a teen Listener. I'm sorry I should have checked your profile before extending the offer. You still have my full support and I wish you the very best.
Keep pressing on!