Confused [Part 1]

Hi, I'm trying to make sense of my past experiences. What I say ahead might be triggering.

[Also to make sense of what I'm saying, I'm a transgender girl, so I'm sorry if what I write is confusing]

So, I don't know if I've been abused (sexually), or harassed, or if my past experienced were even serious - worthy of attention. Sometimes I just feel really bad, or wrong by saying I might have been abused.

Anyway, I know that I have been traumatised by the actions of a boy, the same age as me. It started when I was 9 I think, a truth or dare game, He kept pressuring me to strip for him, pressuring and pressuring me to. He even took his own clothes of, saying "we're boys" over and over again until I gave in. This probably shouldn't be a significant experience, but I've been going through stages of anger and hurt surrounding what happened, especially his justification of gender in doing it. A year later, we did a school camp talent show. I was in a group with him, a sketch. It was meant to be a funny piece where I couldn't clean my teeth properly - because instead of using my own hands it would be that boy's, and he would stand behind me. As my group did the sketch, everyone laughed, but the teachers ended our performance before we finished - I didn't know why. Later on, people told me they were laughing not because of the toothpaste rubbed on my face, but because the boy behind me appeared to be dry humping me. (I still to do this day am unsure what happened).