Father's Day is kinda hard for me.. Does anyone else feel like this??

Father's day is hard for me sometimes because my relationship with my dad isn't the best and I feel guilty for that. It's just there are certain behaviours he does that make me uneasy. He also was pretty aggressive and scary when he would drink when I was little. He's still drinking even on father's day and it makes me uncomfortable. I wished him happy father's day but I have so many conflicting feelings.