From Sadness to Anger and Back Again

Hello all. I'm not even sur eif this the right place to be posting this, but I need someone to listen to me...I recently made a huge mistake in verbally attacking one of my dearest friends...From their perspective it loked like it was compeltely reandom and from out of nowhere...But it's only becuas eof the various things that have been mulling aorund in my head.

The thing is, I was severely hurt as a child by my parents religious/political ideologies...Then, my firends (svereal years later) wind up icnorporating similar belifs into the way they think. Becuase I've been so damaged by these tyeps of things in the past, I ended up soemwhat shell shocked seeing it essentially "come back to life" through people I trusted and felt I could get close to. That was a few years ago in and of itslef, but this anxiety and fear about the situation has just been growing and growing.

That's when the other night happened...I let all of these thing build up and all of the memories from the past just sort of swelled in my head and then I lost conrol and sent a very vicious text that attacked my friend's character in ways taht were unfair. I immeidately and have been regreting it. I need help letting go of the past and finding ways to slow down my anger.