Hope

I'm new here and still trying to figure things out. But here seems like a good place to start.

My cousin was shot in front of me when I was 15.

My roommate shot himself when I was 17.

My grandmother, who raised me, was killed in a car accident when I was 22.

My best friend overdosed on heroin a few years ago.

Why does it feel like everybody I care about dies in horrible ways? And why wasn't I able to stop any of it from happening. I feel like it's my fault.

I hope this helps.