Hurt past

I really didnt have a good child hood I faced some abuse and my uncle would be sexually abusive to me I just I grew up around it and now when I was 14 I faced it again with a minulative boyfriend who would make me feel bad for not doing stuff he was so minulative and abusive he constantly hit me for doing things talking about things I wanted to do he got controlling for making have sex with him and do sexual things I just it got to the point where I said no and he would rape me and I got to where he made me want to commit sucide and end it all cause I didnt see it getting better but I was able to work out and leave it just before a year ago and now it still hurts me a lot and affects me but Ive left him to get out of it and I have a huge better life now