I Am Trying To Figure It Out
Hi, I'm just here to vent. I am trying to figure out what makes me feel the way I do. I feel like I'm driving people away from myself due to some reason, perhaps they think I'm rude or mean, or anything, I don't know? I feel bad sometimes about it, but sometimes I try not to care whatever they say about me or to me. I've been into therapy before but it just a helped a little, I guess. I am trying to be mindful, and the more I try to make myself feel better, the more worse it makes me feel. I hope that everything would go away after sometime
I'm so sorry you're going through this. What if you quit trying to "make" yourself feel better? What if you just let yourself be still in the moment, to observe your feelings and why you feel like you are pushing people away? Mindfulness is a very useful tool if used without judgement and trying to force yourself to feel things. Just breathe and let yourself be you. Trying to be a better person is always a good thing and something we can all try to pay more attention to. You're very smart to be thinking about it.
