I was hurt

This happened a couple years ago, but I never told anyone and I need to.

Trigger warning: I was sexually assaulted. I was underage drinking with a friend but I had my sober friend with me. There were four of us that ended up at this random guys house. Two of us ( me too) passed out. The sober friends miscommunicated and they thought we knew the random guy.

So they left us passed out in his bed. I don't remember a lot of what happened next but I know I woke up and that guy was on top of me. And I guess I was still out of it I couldn't move. I just passed out again. I don't know why I couldn't do anything.

I woke up again and freaked (the guy was making out with my friend) and made us leave, my friend was still up and came and got us. And the next day the girl asleep next to me while this happened turned it into a joke. My friend who was asleep next to me when it happened made fun of it being my first kiss, and laughed at me. And I let her because our sober friend who left us was so wracked with guilt. But I shouldn't have, all my college friends still think it was a joke and a good story.

I built this up in my head to be a joke and when I told the story as a joke no one believed it and the walls came crashing down. And now I especially since the Cavanaugh stuff it won't go away. So I'm telling the story. Anyway thanks for listening. Sorry it was long.