Learning

I'm still learning to cope with the last couple months of my life I was seeing this guy who drugged me mentally and physically abused me his friends raped me he would look me in the eye and tell me he wanted slit my throat he just wanted to fucking kill me I had a miscarried with his baby it got to the point where I had to flee my own apartment with nothing and my ex fiance picked me up and got me to safety now me and her are living out of her car and I'm lost I have such bad anxiety and depression I looked her in the eye and said i just want to fucking die