Monster mother
From a young age I learned that NO was never a option . you did what mother wanted you allowed what mother wanted and you never tattled on daddy . You never teased mother or made fun of the little things, you never cried or got angry everything was for her disobedience or showing emotion brought out the monster ..NO brought out the monster , sadness brought her hands between your legs till you laughed .. Anger turned her into a demon . compliments forget giving them compliments were sarcasm compliments were making fun of her . we shared a bed until I was 13 and realised that it was wrong and that I was .. Different ( I'm trans..perhaps because shes crazy)
I had to try and be strong for this thing there was never any privacy .. Daddy drank every day he would tell us how worthless we were how stupid how disgusting.
They never got me help I started burning and they treated me like less than no one ever wanted to know about abuse even when I went to school with a bruise they ignored it as my attention seeking .. I just wanted and still just want to be loved. To prove that the monster wasnt right that some other woman can love me.
@unloveableevilugly
I am so sorry to hear what your mother did to you as a child - that sort of damage is not always easy to overcome. It is a shame people in an position to help you dismissed your injuries as attention seeking - of course it was attention seeking, seeking attention in order to get help for the serious damage that had been done to you - people can be so dense at times. I hope you persist in your healing path - if there is no one in your real life in your corner, there are always helpers on 7cups.