My experience TRIGGER WARNING

Hi , my name is chance. I have Severe clinical Depression. I have been doing a bit better , until recently. I started to become more depressed , zAnd something happened that really messed me up. My cousin tried to kill herself bu ODing. Now , That hits home especially for me because I survived an OD attempt , myself. Luckily , I did not have to go to the hospital , Or at least I didn't go , Whether I should have or not is still up for debate. They said she tried taking a bunch of ibuprophen , Do now they are observing her for liver damage. I can't believe it. I am literally in shock. Right now , I am in some of the most emotional pain that I have ever been in. She is my cousin and she didn't even talk to anyone about it. She seemed so happy. It just goes to show how fragile life really is.

So , I am not doing so well now. I'm trying to cope with everything that's going on , but there has been a lot of stress in my life recently , and thus just makes it all set on overdrive. I'm sorry if I sound like I'm complaining , Whn she is the one in the hospital , I guess I just want to talk. To be honest , I'm not sure which one of us is in more trauma from the whole thing. Either way , My heart will hurt for quite a while now I hope you all have a good night , I'm going to try to fall asleep , probably to no avail

goodnight I 😪