My past..

I'm laying here in my bed, Remembering all you've said, You wishing that I was dead, All those tears that I shed, Every memory is a pain, Since the day I felt ashamed, Playing life as a game, Who should I blame, A fake smile is my disguise, Can you see it in my eyes, Believing all your lies, Reliving the pain in my thighs , Who can I call, When I've went through it all, Being choked up against the wall, Who will catch me when I fall, Years going by so fast, Still reliving my past, Until they'll be my last, Last tear that I cast,