Sam is here
Hey my name is Sam and I have been in foster care for almost a year and nobody has tried to help me with my PTSD and it is hard with my nightmares and panic attacks I am in a new foster family right now and I hope they help I dont trust them yet and I really dont know how to trust them it sometimes scares me to trust
@Sam1509
I understand that. It's hard to trust others. But once you find someone to help you and build the trust of others. Then you are on the right track to start to heal. That's really good the you are in a new foster home. I hope that you get the help that need. I am here for you. I support you.
@GuardianAngel77
thanks
@Sam1509
You're welcome!
@GuardianAngel77
i know my new foster family wants to help but I dont know if that is true or not
@Sam1509
Let go of that thought or your anxiety will take over. You can't control trust, it's an everyday process. Just let them showing to you through their actions towards you. Your gut will let you know if you can or not. But know that you're not at fault and that your feelings matter. Good luck!
@Sam1509
I can understand that. You can't believe them. Just take that first step. And see what happens.
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I am struggling so much right now I blame myself for what happened to me I cant sleep because of the nightmares I am trying to be ok but I am not ok and I dont know what to do I am trying my best but is that enough
Hey there @Sam1509 *offering you virtual hugs*
We are really glad to have you here with us! 
I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so much :(
First of all, it was not your fault, not at all. I mean, I know it may feel like that but you have absolutely nothing to feel guilty or even ashamed for. Of course I do know that these things take time and I want you to know it is okay to take as much time as you want with each step towards your recovery and I do believe in you and beleive in that you can get better and we all are here to support you through all this as best as we can! :)
For now, trying your best is just perfect and I am so proud of you for it and for being here and reaching out for help, you are really strong and brave!
I do hope to hear from you later on :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
u am tired of my feelings I just want the feelings to stop
@Sam1509
I can imagine it has to be very hard to deal with all these feelings and I want you to know that I do really admire your strenght and the bravery to reach out for help here!
I do wonder, do you have distractions that usually work for you? Maybe things you do like to do when youa re feeling better? - I mean, sometimes it can be helpful if you can start to do something that you do generally enjoy, or used to enjoy and try to get lost a bit in that and who knows, you may even find enjoying it again :)
Of course no pressure, if you want to just talk and vent about it we are all here for you as well anytime.
@redmark
i love to draw it helps sometimes
@Sam1509 Oh, drawing sounds aweosme! ^-^
Have you been drawing anything lately? :)
@redmark
yes
@Sam1509 Oh, wow, that looks really awesome, you are very talented!
I do envy you a bit, but I never had enough time to put into drwing >.<
How long have you been drawing for? :)
@redmark
its been 6 years when I started to draw
@Sam1509 Oh, that is a lot and you can really see all that effort as well in your drawings! :)
I do reall admire you for your commitment for drawing and I am so happy to hear that it helps you even through these hard days! :)
I look forward to see more of your artwork around here and just generally to hear more from you if you have anything your mind!
@Sam1509 You are such a talented artist! I've loved getting to see some of your work here and in TSEBI.
I just want to leave
Hey there @Loretta8 *hugs* - only if you are okay with virtual hugs, of course
I am really sorry to hear that you are feeling that way but I do want you to know that we are all here for you and if there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you. :)
Feel free to reach out to us anytime if you ever feel like it but there is no pressure of course!
September 1 2018
September 1 2018 it was a little hard for me it started with a nightmare the same one like always I woke up screaming and crying my foster sister comes in calming me down saying everything was ok saying it was a l dream nothing bad is going to happen after that I felt a little better but I was scared to go back to sleep because I was going to have another nightmare I was really tired but I didnt want to go to sleep at all I felt worthless like I was not worth sleep or food I felt like nobody cared I dont let people in because I am scared I will get hurt and I dont want to get hurt I dont want to hurt anyones feelings I just dont want to be here struggling so much what was the point
i am all alone
@Sam1509 Hi Sam. I'll sit with you if you'd like.
@Kate
i dont want to burden anyone
@Sam1509 You're not a burden.
@Kate i feel like i am i just bother people my feelings doesnt matter
@Sam1509
i am tired of the way i feel
i am so mad
No one cares I am so exhausted
Hey there @Sam1509 *offering safe hugs*
I am sorry to hear that you are feeling exhausted. I want you to know that you are not alone in this tho, we are all here for you if there is anything we may be able to help you with :)