Scared all the time
Well about 9 months ago my back door to my apartment (that leads straight into my bedroom) was kicked in in the middle of the night. A guy just stood there (extremely drunk) babbling about wanting to go to sleep. Luckily my boyfriend at the time was here and yelled at him to leave. We called the police and they caught the guy. But ever since I've had problems sleeping. I'm scared all the time. I triple check my doors at night to make sure they're locked. Its driving me crazy. I dread nighttime because I know I'll have to lay down and be alone in my house.
@Msmitty95 Hey Mitty, thanks for sharing and welcome. Im so sorry you went through this experience and it must have left you feeling terribly upset and afraid. It is understandable that you are frightened that perhaps this could happen again, and even if the chances are unlikely to occur again, the fact its happened once already is bound to put you on edge. It was a terribly invasion not only of your home, but on your sense of safety. Have you been able to speak to someone about what you went through and how its affecting you now.? Have you considered speaking to a doctor about the problems you having with sleep or someone with whom you can share what happened so you can work on your fears and anxieties and perhaps get to feeling safer at night in your home? You say your boyfriend was there at the time, have you been able to communicate with one another about what happened? If you need to speak to someone please reach out to someone here and we will do all we can to support you and be a listening ear. 
@dancingRainbow45 I have a therapist, and I initially told her about the incident when it happened. Im not dating the guy anymore, and I also recently found out I'm pregnant. Him and I don't speak, and my life has been hectic lately and every time I speak to my therapist it's like other things keep coming up. I was on anxiety meds for a while, but they weren't safe for pregnancy so I had to quit. I see my therapist next week and my psychiatrist the week after so I'm definitely going to bring it up. Ive spoken to my mom, but it just feels like nobody understands.
@Msmitty95 Im sorry you feel like no one can understand what you have gone through and can appreciate just how tough things are for you since this incident. I guess the reality is, that unless someone has gone through that experience themselves, they can't know fully the impact that this has had on you, and though trauma survivors have all experienced a traumatic event, everyone is individual with different levels of support, different ways of coping, may even experience many differing emotions. People however, even if they cant appreicate fully what its been like for you, may wish to do what they can to support you. Sometimes it can be hard for them to understand if we find it hard to communicate with them about just what we are going through, so choosing the right people to share with can make a difference. You mentioned how in therapy things come up, and this often is the case. I think people surprize themselves sometimes when they go through therapy just where a session can end up, you may start talking about one thing and you find yourself talking about something entirely different that is obviously important to you. Go with the process, for therapy can be really beneficial for a lot of people. Try and be as open and honest with your therapist because the more they know, the better positioned they are to be able to support you. If you need spend time building up a good rapport where you feel able to trust your therapist in so much as you are able and take things at your pace.