The Night I lost my Mind (poem)

You took me out that night

and tore me down until

there was nothing left but fright.

"If you don't want to listen I will

let you out of the car," you promised,

"but you won't have a home anymore"

I asked you to pull over, but my request you dismissed.

"I'd like to throw you off this bridge." The words you slur,

were the worst you could say.

Daddy, what did I do to make you hate me this way?

Eyes red with anger, the smell of Bud Light

on your breath, and your cheap cigarette smoke penetrated

the air of the Mercury Mystique,

memories of that car now tainted.

From your mouth the words kept flowing

like sewage into the river. The smelled like s***

contaminating my self-esteem, which was no longer glowing

A bit went by, you finally stopped driving, but you weren't done

berating your little girl. Trees surrounding us, a river

in front of us, there was no where for me to run.

Terrified and scared, you walked toward the darkness, I followed after

you begging you to stop. I felt the eyes in the trees watching,

waiting for you to leave me alone so they could get me too.

I was ready for it all to stop. When I saw you

standing by the river my only urge was to push you in and go in after

you. Inst3ead I fell to the ground and screamed

like hell, hoping someone could hear me.

As soon as I accepted I might not make it home that night, to

my surprise a police officer came to my rescue.

Never in my life had I felt such relief. I called for a ride and let you

walk your drunk self home. I didn't have a clue

if I still had a place to live, but you got what you deserved

and I was happy to be free.