Thoughts
I'm not sure how this is going to go but I should probably give it a try. Don't use my voice very often but I'm choking inside so have to get some of this crap out......
I have survived the first day at my new workplace
why did I have to be the one to move?
scared
what if I am totally useless and mess this place up too?
am I really rubbish at my job? Surely I would have an inclination if I was?
does 19 years service count for nothing? Am I being punished?
lost and alone
I have no one I can turn to
Hard to trust when all you know is hurt and rejection
So much going on inside but it's all jumbled and knotted together
scared I will end up back in the dark place, can't fight it again....
Just wanted to say you've been in my thoughts and wanted to drop off a friend :)
@crimsonLime6525 Hey Lime :) I hope you don't mind - I just wanted to see how you're doing. You've been in my thoughts
@crimsonLime6525 You've been in my thoughts ❤ I'm not sure if you celebrate Thanksgiving but I wanted to wish you a Happy Thanksgiving
I wish so many good things for you Lime ❤
*sending you peace and love and leaving a big hug for you*
@CrimsonLime6525 I hope you don't mind. I wanted to drop off a little friend and wish you a Merry Christmas!
@mytwistedsoul thank you for this ❤️
7 years......
why can’t I forget
why can’t I stop feeling
I hate you for what you’ve done to me
i hate myself for letting it happen, for not stopping you
I want to forget......I want to stop hurting
@crimsonLime6525 Hey you :) You have been in my thoughts and I've been lousy for keeping in touch - I'm sorry for that
How are you? I don't know what you're going through and I know there's not much I can do to help make things better or ease your pain but I do send you good vibes and love Lime and I hope for you to have peaceful gentle days ❤
@crimsonLime6525 Hey you :) Just wanted to pop in and say hey - you've been in my thoughts and I've been wondering how you are ❤️
@mytwistedsoul hey yourself, sorry I’ve not been around. Moved away for work so it’s all just been a bit crazy lately. I’m doing my best to just get by at the moment. Will try to write more again soon. Leaving a hug for you if that’s ok with you ❤️
@crimsonLime6525 Thank you and a big hug back ❤️ It's so nice to see you!
Wow moving does sound like it would be crazy busy! All the packing and unpacking and then to try and get used to your surroundings. It sounds stressful tbh
Sometimes that's all we can do - take care of yourself and there's never any pressure to write or reply ok?
*sending you good vibes*
@mytwistedsoul
i like to reply, makes me feel like I belong somewhere if that makes sens
@crimsonLime6525 It makes perfect sense :) I hope your move went ok. Do you like your new place?
@crimsonLime6525
Just wanted to peek in :) You've been in my thoughts - sending you good vibes
*sending you good vibes* You've been in my thoughts ❤️
@crimsonLime6525 Hey you :) It's been awhile. You've been in my thoughts alot lately and I hope you're doing ok ❤️