Trigger Warning *Sexual Assult & Abuse*

(F) I tried to shorten it.i am sorry....

When I was younger I grew up in an abusive home. My dad was really abusive to my mom and sometimes to me and my siblings. He would yell and I rememeber being so scared of yelling.

My brothers were older and had friends and I distinctly remember the friend making me touch him. And me being very young I didn't know what I was even doing.

Skip a few years and I met this neighbor girl, I was about 6 or 7. She was 12 or 13. She and I hung out. But she would isolate me and make me do... things to her. She would make me lick...and suck...certain areas. If I didn't she would yell at me and call me names. Similair thing around this age with a neighbor boy. He was older and ended up holding me down and--. I was so young...

When I was 15 I got into my first serious relationship. I didnt want to have sex, I was waiting to do that for the first time. He raped me, and multiple times. I stayed with him while he emotionally, verbally , and sometimes physically abused me.

I broke up with him at 18 and went to my sister's to visit. I tried drinking for the first time. And I got black out drunk. I was raped multiple times by her best friend. It happened over 3 nights. I am still bothered by this.

Things happened between then. But I went and hung out with a friend from H.S he was a big guy. I was taking him home and he tried to force me to have sex. I eventually had to give him oral to make him go.

I am 19, and scared of people. I can't trust.....:(