Unsure

((TW: Mentions Hospitals, An3urism (i made it like that or else it bothers me to look at it...) se*zures))

Im starting therapy soon because I've been having a hard time coping with my past. It wasn't me exactly but it was my sister and watching her be in the hospital for the A word ^^^. It was hard bc when she first got sick I had to take care of her and my little brother bc my grandmother recently passed- so my parents were out of the country. So basically long story short she ended up in the hospital after an MRI. She was there for maybe a month and was recovering for two ish. She couldn't really walk well because (A word) was by a part of the brain that affected her motorskills. She had surgery and during it she had the S word.

I mean she's fine now but I can't stand to hear those two words. The A one and the S one. Like some days I guess I can handle it better than others??

The best scenario is me just being super uncomfortable and anxious, and worst case scenario means i'm hyperventilating and crying uncontrollably.
The worst time for me was maybe two straight hours of crying over it.

But I mean I won't say I have PTSD... but I mean. This all didn't seem to be a problem until about the end of 2019. -Mind you, this was January/February of 2018.

I don't really know. But I'm ready to start the healing process or to at least start talking about this.