hello hroup
Today im depressed. I've been going through multiple lige changing events. The swat broken in to my home with gas bombs. Im 59 years old. My husband was taken before swat came when I was home by myself. I was handcuffed and it terrified me. Im losing my home, I've never done our taxes and had to get it done, im unemployed and have thousands in credit card debt. My mother is 80 yrs old and my sister is extremely sick. At times I am so scared it paralyzes me. At times I've used alcohol to help me get through these times. There is more to my trauma. Just didn't want to keep going on.
@SandraArthur sorry to hear you had to go through all that I hope its ok but moved this to journalling stories the check-in area is when team members post check-in posts
Hello @SandraArthur !
To be in debt, at a time when you have to care for your aged mother and sister, is incredibly tough-more so than I can imagine! Moreover, to lose the place that has been your home, and to undergo the experience of being arrested. could be quite traumatic.
I can imagine that in the face of it-the traumatic memories you remember, coupled with the dire circumstances you view at present, it feels terrifying, and I'm truly sorry that you are experiencing it!
It sounds like you were using alcohol to cope with the intense feelings of fear that you were feeling. Could you tell me a little more about what other activities you were doing, to cope with the fear?
I can't promise you that it will all be okay in the end, but I would like you to know that we're here with you-*hugs if you would like one*
P.S: This is your space-Please feel free to write here
