i need advice.
6 years ago when i was 18, my uncle commited suicide at the age of 31...i was the one who found the body. i had graduated high school 3 weeks before this happened. he was one of my best friends. in my eyes, he was immortal. and when he died, i was absolutely devestated...i felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest.
and now 6 years later, im still suffering and struggling and im not entirely sure what to do with myself. i have nightmares every single night and wake up crying. i just want this pain to go away. i want it to stop. but im afraid that if i try to move on with my life, that my uncle will think i forgot about him or that i just dont care anymore.
i guess what im wondering is if there are any people out there who have dealt with this losing a loved one to suicide. please. i just need some advice and someone to talk to. this is starting to be a little bit much for me.
Hey sweetyu are very brave i like u so much but u have to go on,ur uncle will be happy if u continune your life i promise.shit happens but life goes on
Please understand that what you are dealing with is PTSD, you don't have to just be a verteran to suffer that condition. It is a serious disorder that needs to be addressed and the sooner the better. Please seek professional help, you deserve to be happy and live a full live and right now you are not. I understand the devastating effects of PTSD, not suicide, I am sorry i cant appreciate what you are going through in relation to that. With help you will begin to accept the trauma and find good coping skills to handle the flashbacks. I wish you the very best, and please get help, you are too young to deal with this alone, nobody should deal with that alone.
I do want to say one thing about suicide, i know it is devastating to the family, but please do not define his life by that one action, when one takes ones own life there is a great deal of pain that has been suffered i would expect for a long time before he actually did the dead