off my chest

Hi everyone I hope your all having a great day

So basically I have been through two traumatic experiences in my life one when I was younger with a family member from my adoptive family and the other ive never talked other than now

So basically ive been letting this eat at me until now, in middle school around 8th grade I got into a relationship with a guy he was really nice and stuff at first but after about 6 months he got really pushy, now i am not a very strong or tough girl and he was a really strong guy, i was over at his house and he wanted me to do him i really didn't want to so he grabbed my hair made me,, he did this just about every weekend when i came over only he would go more into undressing me and etc you can guess i really don't want to get into it but if i refuesd he would restait me /hold me down, he would want to do drugs with him like weed/smoke and i refused my he made me, it came ti the point where he wanted sex but i refused so he would rape me and he did it 3 times, i was in this relationship for about a year and a half and i sorta delt with it and held it inside even though it was painful i finally left after i told him i was thinking about if i was gay, he got really mad and hit me and he raped me after that, i couldn't take it anymore so i left him,

so i really have two questions,

1 how to come out and sorta get this behind me i guess?

2 i still see him daily at school, any ways to help me get through the day.

thanks for whoever reads this i know it was alot and thanks for the help