rape, I think ? help
Hi everyone.
I am a freshmen in college, and last week I was very very very drunk. Awfully drunk. I don't remember anything from the night except one thing.
The one thing I remember is that someone had sex with me. From this experience, all i remember is thinking that I needed to stop it, and I hated every second of it. I still have no idea who it was.
I feel so shitty about it, whenever I tell my friends they yell at me and say it was my fault. "How could you be so drunk tto have sex with someone and hate it!? Why didnt you stop it!?"
I have no idea why I didnt stop it. I should've. I was just so drunk.
I also have a boyfriend that I love very much, I would never hurt him and wouldn't dream of cheating on him, but then this happened. He forgave me, but still doesn't really understand how awful it was. He's very hurt that it happened.
I've also had bipolar depression and severe anxiety for about five years. It's just gotten worse after this whole thing. I know it's my fault, I know I shouldn't have been that drunk. Please help me still.
Hey its okay, i understand how you feel.. i sort of been through this situation. But not as hard as yours. You should not be hard on your self, it was not your fault and you didnt want it to happen. Sometimes we go through situations that we dont want to go through.. i think you are a strong person though you seeked help, i know you can get trough this, try not to think about negative thoughts. There are a lot of listeners ready to help you get trough with this, this would help you a lot... I hoped this helped.. Hugs for you 
hey, being drunk is not consent, please dontblame yourself
Hi! I'm really sorry this happened to you. But please don't blame yourself. This happened to me years ago and it was my first too. I got so depressed. A year after that, I talked to my psych professor in the university. She told me that I should have been careful but I shouldn't blame myself either. And that the guy is stupid for taking advantage of you. It means he doesn't respect women at all. I hope he feels bad about what he has done.
