scared of the night
About 4 days ago I was at a bar with friends. It should have been a fun night, which at the beginning it was. I was the designated driver so I wasn't really drinking. The music was great. It was the type of music that people don't dance together. Everyone solo danced. I was on my 3rd beer. I had it up in the air. When I put my arm down, a guy was right behind me and I felt him tap my beer. I thought it was weird, but besides that, thought nothing of it. A couple of seconds later another guy came right in front of me. Last time I checked, it 2:15 am. I had been roofied,
After that time, I have no memory of anything. I was found 30 miles from where I was. I was found by cops parked in a gas station, sleeping without a seatbelt.
This whole situation has me scared. I can't travel alone. Especially not during the night. I don't want to be alone. I'm scared that it will happen again.
Hello. I am so so sorry you had to go through such a horrible experience like that! It is shameful what some people can and will do to others. Do you remember the faces of these two men, and were they captured on video in the bar or in real life?
Regardless, you have to take your power back and don't ever let them feel that they have crippled you. Sharing your story and learning to make sense of it all is a huge help. It is important for you to work through this situation so that you know that it was not your fault. It is never the fault of the victim in a crime such as this. You had no power to say "no". Being here is a huge part of beginning the healing process because there are so, so many caring and wonderful people here that can help you by just listening or perhaps sharing a similar story. <3
There is strength in numbers, so if you needto be out somewhere and it is night, make sure you do not go alone for awhile. You need to learn to feel safe again. Take your life back one day at a time, Patita. This CAN be a very powerful journey for you. <3 The community will be here to support you...
The bad thing is I was out with so called friends. I heard their story and they left me there. We had gone there together, and they ended up leaving me there. Now, people are expecting for me to act like nothing happened. To smile and laugh, like nothing. I can't do that. I'll fake it, but inside I'm hurting, bad. . They think it's a joke.