Negative coping mechanisms when going through C-PTSD
I just feel so alone when it comes it having C-PTSD and always finding unhealthy ways to cope with it. I was wondering if anyone would feel comfortable in sharing their experiences with me so that it makes me feel less alone. Thanks.
@Raine453. I'm so sorry for your pain. I have had so many unbearable days. I totally understand. That pit of pain is excruciating and difficult to get out from under. I have CPTSD/MDD/Anxiety. I have old and new trauma and I feel some days like a live wire and other days when I can't get out of bed and all I want to do is cry. I have shared with my sis and my therapist and no one else. Its why I'm on 7 cups- my trauma is hard to hear and hard to tell. So I don't share with ppl I know. I have huge trust issues and ppl are nasty when they use your darkness to make themselves feel good, by blabbing/gossiping about the stuff that's brought you to your current condition. Most wouldn't have survived what I have. So I see my therapist regularly and I'm on medication, I journal and paint, I garden, I joined a gym and I try to spend time outside in nature when possible. I try very hard to see my life as a learning process as painful and damaging as it's been. I try to help others when I can. ( This helps me the most). It's very brave that you joined here and reached out for help! Great step into healing yourself. I realized that you have to be your own hero , reach out for help and love yourself no matter what's happened. Your doing the best you can with what you know. one day at a time. Best 💜 ABB
@amiableBlackberry92 Thank you for reaching out and sharing your experiences. You are letting people that are facing the same things as you know that they are not alone.
@Raine453 Thank you for posting this from your listener account. By doing so, you are bringing awareness that us listeners go through this.
This whole experience is so isolating. I feel defective on some level. I question my life so often. Today's one of those days I can't function and I feel incredibly sad. I hate this. My abuse is still affecting me and I hate that. It's so unfair, I'm not a bad person, maybe it's something I did in a previous life? Idk
@amiableBlackberry92 Hi. I feel this way too a lot. Probably more often than not. I hate the lasting effects. The only thing that seems to help a little is knowing that I likely would be different in worse ways too if I hadn't gone through the abuses. If I hadn't been the scapegoat, I probably would've been the Golden child. And I think I'd really rather have this pain than be like them and abuse others. Even if not that extreme, I've known a lot of decent people who weren't very kind to others. You seem very kind replying and supporting people here. I hope in some small way it helps to know that you are connecting and helping others' lives through your pain.
Yes trying hard, today's one of many... I can't shake my incredible sadness. I feel bad for my spouse he doesn't know what to do when I'm like this and I've tried everything it's just a wait it out thing. He's probably the only reason I'm not in a worse position. He was a kind of rescuer for me so I could afford to escape where I grew up. The biggest problem is I was an easy target to be victimized by many other rotten ppl in and out of the workplace and everywhere in between. I see those type of predators like sharks and I'm the little fish they can torment or eat . It's why I don't go out much . I can't work in my condition. My sibs and I try to support each other best we can because we really understand why we are the way we are. Thx for replying it makes me feel better....💜 ABB
Yes! It's sooo unfair! I thought it's some karma thing as well! It's extremely isolating! And I feel defective too!
