New here
Hi everyone,
I just signed up on this site a few minutes ago.
I'm not really sure how to get started with talking about things. I'm just really tired of feeling all of these not good feelings. It's completely exhausting me. I keep telling myself I'm tired of this and need to make changes and help but therapy hasn't done anything (12 years) which I know is mainly on my part because I act as if things are okay to seem not a burden. I'm not really sure what to say here.
@Lyra90
Well you can say anything you want here. Connect to a listener and get stuff off your chest. This is place to vent, just so you don't bottle it all up. Maybe occasionally get advice.
But any recovery is on you. So you might want to admit there is a problem (which you have done so) now just let it take its course and heal up. Pretending everything is ok isnt good for you in the short term and won't be good for those people you don't want to be a burden to in the long run.
Its hard, believe it, everyone on this site knows recovery and change is hard but thats the only thing that matters. No point in maintaining the status quo when its bad.
All the best.
So sorry to hear you're feeling so exhausted @Lyra90...it can get very tiring when you've been living with this for a long time... it is wearying. Wonder if it beginning to see that you are not burdening others, rather that they care and are willing to support you, would make a difference. Here for you and hoping you find healing and new energy.
Thank you.
I'm trying to work on getting it all out. I just want it over with. It's like constant ups and downs without there ever being a moment where I can say I feel good or feel happy. I don't even feel like I'm living half the time. Just going through the motions.
I can't seem to get unstuck from all the stuff.