Ptsd

I Joined the community to be able to share my ptsd issues. I'm dealing with this so many years and I experienced emotional bullying from teachers and students as a kid even now at work and im doing a good job with my clients. They never show appreciation no matter what I do even when the clients show respect about my work.When I express how I feel to my parents for them is just part of the life's problems and that ignorance is driving me insane. Somehow I want to bury my emotions and lock them deep in my heart's abyss  so that I become cruel and feel nothing anymore. I want to protect myself. If someone has another opinion let's share it.