18 years in hell
Hi, I've never done this before and feeling quite nervous about writing this down but in short here goes. For 18 years I was kept locked in a room by my farther some of that time with my sister. . He would come into the room and would beat us until we could no longer resist. He would then rape us. This process would happen up to 20 times a day to each of us. When I was 16 he beat and raped my sister so violently that she passed away, so he would pay more attention to me as I was the only one there. My farther had a heart attack at work, we had no other family so the council went to sort the house out and found me and my sisters bidy in the room he kept us in. I have recently been diagnosed with PTSD, Schizophrenia, Bi Polar, sever depression and server anxiety disorder. I'm really struggling I haven't left my flat for the last couple of years as I am to scared to go out and I just go into melt down if I think about it. I don't quite know what my next step is i cant reach out to my mental health worker as she really doesnt help and lets just say she doesnt know ive not been out as she comes to me. How can I forget what happened?
Oh wow. I don't know quite what to say, except to hope that you get support which helps with this issue. You so deserve to come through this and go on to enjoy all the good life has to offer. Take care.
i am so sorry to hear of your experiences -dont expect to forget-you will spend so much time trying to forget-you need to start your life afresh-from tomorrow -its about each day-do you have a friend who can take you out or have you tried this already?
I've never met anyone other than my sister my dad and the council / police that found me and my MH worker and the people I met when I was in a mental health unit
perhaps you need to find a friend - did u say u had a social worker-where r u based
England, I have a MH worker not a social worker
@helpme123 No one should have gone through what you and your sister have been through. I can only say that you are still lucky in a way because you are now free from that hell. You have my deepest sympathy for the loss of your sister. Please stay strong and if you need someone to talk to, you can PM me anytime and I will get back to you as soon as I can. 
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